You see I haven't write my blog for a long time. I just too busy with students life. Well I'm a former Matriculation student. But who cares that was in the past. I thought life in matriculation would be fun just like in university but I'm totally wrong. I know I'm chasing a degree right now but still matriculation is just like an ordinary school. How I wish there will be a turnover in my life. Where I can meet Kim Jonghyun and he would be my friend and soon became my boyfriend. That would be nice, but I know that's all in my dream. Don't forge they are not nearby they are across the sea to be honest. This is why I hate how am I living right now. I am so pathetic. I'm just a useless daughter who can't even persuits her career as a student. I failed as a student and now I'm wishing for everything?? You can just keep dreaming on. I want my life to be just like a fanfic. Where I will meet my shining knight armor and he would be protect me 24/7. I may be looks so tomboy-ish but my heart is so fragile. I could be hurt so easily. I'm praying to Allah so he give me a man that will never hurt me again and again. My heart has already broke into pieces but I pick it up back and arrange by myself, how sad. This is the story hen a Romeo meets his Juliette, lol I'm not saying it's the as the old Romeo and Juliette but still the pain in the story is still exist in my love life. I think I'm just confuse with my true feeling, I'm still young so I don't know the true meaning of love. I think that is just a childish love. I just want a man who will always love me and would think of me as their girlfriend and who can also act as a bestfriend. Man, what nonsense I've been writing about....
I want to dream bout him tonight, please I haven't dreamt bout him since last year. I miss him so much, oh what's happening with me. I hate myself actually. I'm just a pathetic little girl who lost in her own a world....please take me back to the right path. My life is just like the four seasons always change in short moment but with the same incident. I still remember how I know him for the first time....but everything has became a memory
